Now I like to game. Whether it is a video game or board game, in the privacy of my own home with friends I will give it a try. My problem is that well, I am just not that good. In a house with three strong gamers who definitely have that competitive edge that all gamers need, I am at a distinct disadvantage.
I typically see myself as an extrovert with a hint of shyness. Normally I will tackle something head on and will give anything new a try. Stick me in a room full of strangers at a party and I will mingle.
Except when it comes to any type of gaming.
If you put me in a room of die-hard gamers I will do my best to become invisible. Even without trying, gamers intimidate me. While I may smile and say “Sure, I will give it a try” I would much rather watch. That just goes to show that at any age, one will often give in to peer pressure rather than come across as a spoil sport.
I can count the number of times that I have tried a video game in public (typically at a convention) and I will only play a board game with strangers when coerced.
It’s funny. It’s assumed that since I like all things related to the geek culture that I am a gamer. Friends, or friends of friends think that if they place a game in front of me I will react with the same glee that I usually give to chocolate, caffeine and wine (3 of my favourite food groups 🙂 ).
I have talked before about the fact that we are all gamers, to one extent or another. That is true. My discomfort comes from gaming in front of others, especially people I don’t know and who are more qualified than I am. It’s intimidating. This became very apparent recently when my husband and I went to a cosplay/gaming-themed wedding (I only knew the bride and groom). It was wonderful but by the end of the night I wanted to crawl UNDER one of the gaming tables.
What’s funny is that my husband is just the opposite. At a party, he is the one that stands against the wall and watches. You put him in a room full of gamers however and he’s good to go. He and our boys will jump at the chance to try the latest video game at a convention, and he has considered trying for some of the tabletop competitions that we have seen.
It should come as no surprise then that he is better at gaming than I am.
Maybe that’s part of my problem. It’s like the saying goes, practice makes perfect. Honestly though, I just don’t have that competitive streak in me. Maybe one day I will just realize that the only person who really cares if I am any good at gaming or not, is me. Everyone else just wants to hang out.
Until then if you need me, I will be under the gaming table with a book.
Until we meet again everyone!
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